Well there are now LESS than 2 weeks before my wedding. WHOO-HOOO! I am getting really antsy and excited over the wait. It's so close, but it seems so far away still.

I'm sitting here this lovely Sunday morning eating a bag of Andy Capps Hot Fries. I love these snacks so much. So does Chunk. We like them so much that he ordered a box of them from the internet because they are difficult to find in stores. I will tell you where I recently discovered them....The Kroger in Brentwood village. They are in the chip aisle on the bottom shelf, go get some!! hey are so awesome, but don't eat them if you don't enjoy spicy-hot food. I had searched both Wal-marts, 2 Krogers and every gas station in town for them, and could not find them. Yesterday I decided to take the kids grocery shopping, and I chose the Brentwood village kroger because I knew they had a nifty racecar shopping cart for both my kids to sit in. My objective was to get in and out of there only purchasing the things on my list, but I saw those golden sticks of spicy corn from the bottom shelf and they were beckoning me like a siren. I couldn't escape, so I bought 5 bags. I have eaten 2 of those bags since 4 o clock yesterday. Eeeeeeep, let's all hope I can still fit into that wedding dress come Monday morning when I try it on for the final time before the wedding.

My ex in laws are acting up again, they are making it very very difficult for me to want to be a part of their family. They are rude and inconsiderate of my feelings, and they gossip lies about me all of the time, and I don't know how much longer I can smile and be nice and kind to them despite the way they treat me. I don't even live in their house anymore, but they still have me come and do projects for them, like cutting down a 10 foot hedge by hand with a pruner on Friday. I also helped them paint the house I no longer live in, so that my ex husband would have a nice house to stay in when he had the kids last week. The really messsed up part is, right before I moved out, they put up for sale signs in front of the house without telling me. I had no warning whatsoever, just one morning these for sale signs were out in front of the house I lived in. The house they promised I could live in until I finished college. After I moved out...They took the for sale signs down and Shelley, my ex-mother-in-law, moved right into the house I had been living in. She's redecorated the whole thing, and I guess she is going to live there permanently. Nice scam, put for sale signs up and act like you're selling the house to get me to move out so your daughter can move in and your greatgrandkids have to stay in a 2 bedroom apartment now. Good trick, I found it so crafty. Evil is probably a better term for it. I know they read this journal, and that is why I hesitate to post further details about things. They have a history of spying on me via the internet,. And they finally admitted to it last November, they claimed they were sorry blah blah blah, but I know they still do it. I can't divulge how I know, but I am 100% certain they still do.

So, hi everyone in my ex husbands family. I hope you're enjoying my journal.

I really wonder if I have "doormat" written across my forehead sometimes.
Friday night, I stayed over at my old house really late talking with my ex sister in law. We were having a lot of fun and I didn't want to leave yet. My kids ended up falling asleep over there, and around 1 am I decided to go home, I told Abbey (ex Sis in law) to call me early as soon as Bubba woke up. Well turns out, my ex mother in law sneakily woke up super early before Abbey or Bubba and took Hollie to Champaign with her without asking anyone. Champaign is a good 45 minutes to an hour away, and this woman did not ask my permission or tell a soul that she was taking Hollie with her. She should count her lucky stars tat I didn't press kidnapping charges against her. You do NOT take someone's child to another city without the mothers permission. How stupid can she be? Her own daughter who lives in the same house as she does didn't even know she had taken my daughter there. She didn't bring her back until 4 pm. I was extremely pissed, but again, I remained cool and collected and was kind to them as usual. I was supposed to stay over for dinner, but as soon as they got in the car to run to the store for something, I took my kids and left, and I have no intention of going back over there again. They have no right to treat me the way they do and disrespect me around my own children. I will hang out with Abbey still, but there is no way in hell I am going to hang out with her mom or grandmother anymore. It will be really hard on my kids, because they LOVE their Guh and Nana (great-grandma and grandma), but I feel like I have no choice. There are so many horrible things they have done that I could list, but it's not worth my energy. I am done.

Today I was going to go to Singles Ward in Champaign with Abbey so she wouldn't feel awkward about being in a new church alone, but apparently her family has a problem with that too. Abbey's mom was going to let her borrow her Suburban for the drive up to Champaign, but last night Shelley (my ex mother in law) made this new rule that Abbey isn't allowed to drive it when other people are in the car (me). So I don't even know if Abbey is going to church now. I am going to my regular ward at 12:20, if she wants to come with me she can. I can't believe another gripe about my ex in laws snuck in here. I have to let one more thing out...I invited them to my wedding, and they said they would be there for sure, and that they are driving out a few days beforehand. Well last night Abbey told me they said they aren't coming now. They never said a word to me about coming, so now Abbey doesn't have a ride to Colorado and she can't come to my wedding. It's such bullcrap. I really hope they are reading this...That way they can know how I really feel instead of seeing me smile as I do their slave-work. I am a person, I have feelings and everything you say and do affects me. I won't allow myself to be used anymore, that's what my ex husband did to me and I will be damned if I let his MOM and GRANDMA do the same thing.
I am done with my rant, but it didn't make me feel any better.
I love you all! (unless you're an ex, then you can change love to "despise")